May 2010
1 post
this isn't a post about you
well this is my first post that isn’t about you. but in a way, i guess it really is about you just because im talking about how it isn’t about you, making it really about you. i hope you’re confused.
April 2010
3 posts
you were right.
and you’ve always been right.
i really need to get back into blogging. my life has changed so much lately and i have just been thinking about things alot. every aspect of my life has changed in some way, yet i still cant move on. ive been trying so hard lately. but ive just been failing over and over. i need to just get past this. but for some reason, i just dont want to get over you. i know theres no point to this, but i...
blog blog blog blog blog blah blog blog blog blog blog
February 2010
2 posts
why
is the world such a cruel place?
so i never even bother to go on tumblr anymore. but today is different. today, i made the biggest mistake of my life. and i just feel the need to post this.
January 2010
1 post
Hey
It’s been a while….. I’m back.
September 2009
13 posts
bro code sucks so bad.
fuck.
haha
im surprised i even kept that. but im happy its broken now. i guess i just kept it, because it meant something to me. it was just something that reminded me of you. better yet, us. but im glad its broken. im glad that all this shit happend. im glad i got to see the real you.
so right back to this feeling. maybe ill actually fucking follow through this time.
wow
yeah, i knew that this would happen again. i knew i would get shot down. but i just thought to myself “what the hell, maybe ill give it one more shot” that was such a mistake. that was exactly what happend, i got shot down. and on top of that, i got to see a new side of you. a side i wish i never saw. i never knew that you would be that type of person. you always seemed so different...
once again
back in this same place. stuck on you. again. it seems like this re-occuring cycle that i cant break out of. it sucks in a way, but then again it doesnt. i know i should be over you by now, but to me, it just doesnt seem right. i know that you are done, and youve moved on and everything, but still, i just cant get over you. i know that were done forever, but im having such a hard time accepting...
this really bothers me so much.
today
my dad almost ran over a cat.
: (
girls
why are they so dumb?
they just never seem to get it.
it makes me so frusterated.
i hate
how some people are just douchebags. seriously. people come into my work all the time and just act like complete dicks for no reason. i just dont get why some people are just such dicks.
my blogs need to stop being so depressing. and i need to stop blogging about things that happened a year ago that i still cant manage to get over.
wow
i havent blogged in a while.
August 2009
9 posts
for some reason
things like this ALWAYS happen to me. it sucks.
All the rest aside.
you’re still one of my kind.
you.
always make me feel like this. ive felt like this for over a year now. i just need to get over it/you. ive tried and ive tried, but i just cant.
Fuck.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
im fucked.
So today was my sister’s 18th birthday. Its just so wierd how everyone is growing up so fast. She moved into her apartment today, and its just so wierd not having her around as much. i dont want to grow up. im gonna figure out how to freeze time.
Fuck.
Random Thoughts.
Today I was thinking. And I just thought what it would be like to be able to start this past year over, and redo everything. I wish that was possible. I want to change so much. My life would just be so much different. As of right now, I dont even know what im doing. I just miss how everything used to be.
I dont think i will ever understand this.
Why do girls always end up with assholes?
They always do.
Girls can just never see when a guy is a complete tool i guess.
They just always look right past any decent person, and go straight for douchebags.
I just really dont get it at all.
YES!
so today, i got a ton of film developing stuff. now i can just develop and make prints from film at my house. im freaking pumped.
July 2009
1 post
i fucking hate you for this
June 2009
1 post
so
its been about ten months. and im still not over you i guess. i hate this.
May 2009
3 posts
i
will never forgive you for this.
what
happend to you?
what have you turned into?
your not the same person anymore.
i dont even know you.
i can honestly say
church is the best thing that has ever happend to me.
April 2009
6 posts
I am
just so sick of this feeling.
im
so annoyed. with everything. and everyone.
today i just realized so many things about certain people.
okay
you tell me one thing. and you mean the complete opposite. you can never decide on anything. maybe you should take other people’s feelings into consideration before saying anything. just build my hopes up and shoot them down again. you always do.
wow.
this always happens. what is this? the third time? yeah i think so. come on, lets try for a fourth time. just lead me on again. do it.
fuck my life.
March 2009
4 posts
what
the hell am i doing?
so
i just bought a lens for my camera. and now im even more in debt.
great. : (
i always
do this to myself.
always.
February 2009
7 posts
I want
to go into hibernation for the next 30 years. i think i just might do that.
Im done.
with everything. I dont want anyone or anything to hold me back or tie me down. i just want to do whatever.
comitment
am i scared of it too.
maybe.
i dont know.
temptations.tempations.
they are everywhere. everyone falls victim to them at one point or another. other people continue to fall victim over and over. some try to resist all they can. some succeed. majority dont.
I try to stay away from all of these temptations. yet somehow they always find me.
day after day
without an answer. and each day it just gets more confusing.
i want an answer.
you
confuse me sometimes.
but i guess im okay with that.